Thursday, 21 January 2010

Lost in Confusion

I'm going to have to be honest. I intended this blog to be a diary. But there's a lot more I'd be willing to write in a diary than I'd be prepared to risk writing on here. Because it's a bit obvious it's me, isn't it? I mean, there's the photo of me with my profile, isn't there, not to mention the photos of the horses.
But if I'm going to be honest, I'm going to have to mention Missis a little more, aren't I? And telling the truth may sound like I am criticizing them, which I don't want to do. And as far as I know, Missis doesn't read this, but if she does...
This blog was meant to be about us, and people that came into it were just incidental, but if I don't explain things, the situation will become even more confusing than it is now.
So... I had an opportunity to confront Missis about what she said yesterday about selling her horses. It transpires that Pongo moans that she is spending so much time with the horses at the weekend, and not with him. I told her my worries of yesterday, and she said not to worry, they'd always intended to have tenants, and she needed us and wanted us here. So that's a relief.
Then she said she might have liveries, to give me an income. What on earth does that mean? That she would still sell her horses and have liveries instead, and I would muck out? Because, to be honest, I wouldn't have the strength. To have DIY'ers who would obviously muck out for themselves? That would be good. To have cows? Hmmm. What work is involved there? I'd have sheep any day, though, that would be lovely. And more chickens. But it isn't my farm.
And I think that's part of the problem. They are very intelligent people, but they have so many choices, and take a great deal of time to look at the pros and cons of everything until they are exhausted and don't do anything. I'd have common sense over academia any day.
The main thing, as far as we are concerned, is to put a manege in, so that Mr O can ride in the winter. We are not people that only want to ride for six months of the year. If they have liveries they'll have to have a manege, otherwise they have no real facilities to offer them. But that doesn't mean it's a priority for Pongo and Missis.
That's the problem I think, in a nutshell. They are very good at starting a project, but hopeless at finishing it. The drive isn't finished, the stables aren't finished, the field drainage isn't finished. If even one of these was completed they would have something to show for their efforts. Otherwise, what can they really say they did in 2009?
Jesus was the 'author and finisher' of our faith, wasn't he? Thank goodness He didn't do half a job! Genesis says Noah 'finished the ark'. Imagine if he hadn't! Finishing what you started seems like a strong theme to me.
Missis says she doesn't know which thing to do first, whether to pay off the mortgage or fix the roof on the house. I had a giggle later on, as I came across Proverbs 24:27 which says, 'Finish your outdoor work and get your fields ready; after that, build your house.' Mmm. A word to the wise, I think.
So I have decided not to worry, and trust the God that got us here. If he can do this, he can do anything. I will just make the most of each day as it comes. And if it stops, it stops. There will be something better to move onto.


  1. I don't know what "having liveries" means, and I don't know what a "manege" is, so I'm not sure the issue's been elucidated for me...

    I do think it's nice that she's keeping your well-being and income in mind, though...whether or not she finishes her driveway... :-)

  2. Me again..I am anonymous because I have no blog or site of my own. O am Debi, from Canada. Eye is better, people have features now, not merely talking blobs..yay! I have a small training yard, 8 horses, work full time, have 4 grown children, single for the last 12 years. It IS hard to finish things, perhaps your landlords could use a littel advice as to what would be most beneficial to start. When there is SO much it can be daunting. Good luck. June..having liveries is boarding horses, like children away to school, a manege is a schooling area, arena, riding ring. Are you also from North America?

  3. Glad to hear that your landlords aren't thinking of leaving you in a bind. Why do they want to downsize on horses? Interesting, the concept of retiring a horse. I guess if I were to retire my horse, I would still try to keep him, not get rid of him. Like an old car or something! ;) Glad you got out on Max the other day, positive small steps are good for confidence! Like you, I tend to want to dismount in scary or uncomfortable situations, being on the ground makes me feel better.

  4. Good morning~

    My, have had a time of it this past week. I agree with anonymous. Perhpas a little advice to your landlords might be of some help in determining what should take precedence in being fixed.

    Thank you for stopping by this morning. I felt it was important to post The Long Haul this morning. God had a reason for putting it on my heart! :> )

    Blessings, my friend~


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